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  • 5/9

    And today… today, I’m exhausted for no apparent reason. Baby bro woke me up early.    Together, we went to a 7am primary care appointment.    7am isn’t that big of a deal.   I’m used to getting up a lot earlier than that. You’d think the 7am appointment wouldn’t have to wait, but no.   Waited… Read more

  • 5/7

    I’ve been in an odd sort of mood lately. Well, I’m always in an odd sort of mood.   But, that’s beside the point. I’ve been noticing things lately.  Not good things.  Things that are a bit worrying. During my anorexic years, I became increasingly aware of the shapes of other people. I wasn’t cruel to… Read more

  • 5/3

    Tomorrow is the Disney holiday – May fourth  –  as in, “May the fourth be with you.”   Cheezy as heck, but Disney made it huge when they started releasing the new Star Wars movies. I don’t think they really promote that anymore, but a scar has been left on that day.    Thanks, Disney! New… Read more

  • 4/29 – free writing

    Tomorrow, I need to take my fakey Boniva.  It’s not the named branded stuff, but I guess it serves the same purpose.    Okay, it’s not tomorrow.   Rather May 1st. Tomorrow I see Endgame with little bro and sister after going to the gym with little bro. Experiment —- Actually going to try to free… Read more

  • 4/26

    I was going to write something yesterday, but I was so rudely interrupted by a two and a half hour phone call………………….   Bleh. In a way, I feel like I’m in a pretty good place in my life right now. It’s certainly not perfect by any means, but I’m working (sorta), being a good sister,… Read more

  • 4/18

    I’ve been feeling pretty odd lately on several different fronts. It’s about time for me to return to Florida, as per Jason and my agreement from February.  I’m supposed to go down there for a couple of months and then both of us head back to Indiana in late July for Gencon and his vacation.… Read more

  • 4/12

    Another odd day. Yesterday, I had the full intention of going to the gym, doing homework, and eating a pint of Arctic Zero I bought for myself.   Rather, little sister bought for me at the same time she bought herself B&J’s Cinnamon Bun, which disappeared after two days. I opened my eyes this morning, about… Read more

  • 3/14

    I have a love/hate relationship with this time of year. I can see the faded green coming back in winter scorched tree bark….. ………. Grrrr… I love spring, okay. Spring is coming, but it hasn’t sprung just yet. It’s trying.   Starts of Easter Lillies are pushing up from the grown.   There’s green.   I see buds… Read more

  • On an island.

    There once was a man who lived on a small island.  Coming from a fairly well-off family, he desired political power and, eventually got it through various and, sometimes, not-so-nice means. But, during this time, he built roads, opened a record number of schools, and was honored with numerous awards and certificates, including the Chinese… Read more

  • 2/12

    The weather is 30, not 80. It’s been raining on and off for the past couple of days instead of a blue sky. The rivers swell and I’m wearing pants, not shorts.  (Blue jeans, even if they’re out of style.) I’m in a house of four others instead of just one. I don’t have to… Read more