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  • 12/13

    Here I sit, like a twit, looking at this piece of shi… Sadly, I can’t claim authorship of that little rhyme. That was masterfully penned by someone whose name I have totally forgotten. I remember that I worked with her for over ten years.   I actually helped get her hired on – not because I… Read more

  • 12/11

    Here I sit, like a twit – waiting on the air conditioner guy from the soon to be defunct Sears. I have no energy today. I did a lot yesterday.    There’s still a lot to do, just a slightly lesser amount.  I just don’t know what my deal is.    It’s practically noon and… Read more

  • 12/4

    I’m exhausted. What’s with the pink? There were pink walls, pink robes (the ones that tie in the front), and pink plastic bags. There was pink wrapped candy if I cared to pick any up. The pictures where ugly pink flowers. Pink. Pink. Pink. Pink. I get it.   Breast cancer awareness is a pink ribbon,… Read more

  • 12/1

    Admittedly, I’ve made the past couple of days harder on myself than I needed to be. The Wednesday routine mammogram turned up something.  This something was so something that they called me back on Thursday for additional pictures. Neither I nor my doctors are sure what it is yet, but I have two theories. A: … Read more

  • 11/27

    Saw Doc S this morning. No change in the anti-depressants. She warded me from anti-schizophrenia meds.    Doc S said that, with my history, the side effects could be worse than any potential help.    If the voices persist, we may have to resort to that, but so far, so good. Despite the cold and… Read more

  • 11/26

    Cold. There’s really not much else to say about today. Well, there’s always something, but that’s the main thing.    It’s cold. It’s like in the upper 20s. It’s the first day the snow is sticking. That beautiful white fluffy stuff that inspires Christmas carols, serial killers, and snow days.    It’s a pretty versatile… Read more

  • 11/23

    It didn’t really dawn on me until today how much I should actually be grateful and thankful for what I have. First, I have a family who loves me and I love in return. Sure, we have our ups and downs, but when the crap hits the fan, they are there waiting.   No questions asked… Read more

  • 11/22

    The last two days have been kind of odd. On Tuesday, the little sister and I went to Bloomington for the sole purpose of checking out Culvers.  This store was offered to her, but she didn’t want to have to travel that far every day.  So, she ended up training the management team. It was… Read more

  • 11/15

    For some reason, I decided to stay home today. No gym, no silly game – nothing. My decision might possibly be based on the ice coating the quickly bare tree limbs.  The power was out from about one am going forward till about ten.  I really, really, really dislike the cold and the aching bones… Read more

  • 11/9

    Okay, so I went to the doctor today — my primary care physician, Dr P. I talked to a nurse for about five minutes while she took my vitals.   Dr. P made an appearance and I talked to her for about five minutes and then in comes the nurse to tap me for four vials… Read more