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  • Wedding Mint

    My sister is the bride’s maid for her best friend’s wedding this August. Today was our first outing looking for a dress at the local bridal shop. As soon as I walked in, this wedding dress, shining white with silk, lace, and bows, was waiting to greet me.  It was wrapped around an immaculate headless… Read more

  • Adjunct noob

    Hey lolly lolly, a new term started. I’m monitoring ENGL102, which is a basic class, one step up from very basic, but students are required to take it.   It’s a small paycheck, but it’s a paycheck. A while back, this college started to attach co-instructors to the basic classes.    At first, I wasn’t overly thrilled.   … Read more

  • his food / my food

    In the beginning, there was our-ish food. We would share a frozen Marie Callender’s frozen lasagna (family size).   I’d cook something or we’d just wind up snacking on stuff in the evenings after work.    If he worked late, I’d fix myself a really cheap cut of steak or just whatever there is. Sure, we didn’t eat… Read more

  • … and I walked.

    Since coming to Florida, I’m guessing that I’ve walked between five and 13-ish miles a day, save the one day that it was raining and a couple of days I stayed in to catch up on work. –   My mileage may vary, as I still can’t find the wire to charge the Fitbit, but today’s… Read more

  • It ends in zero.

    At one point, vampires where the thing. Everyone wanted to be a vampire, bitten by one, or at least watch a vampire movie.  Anne Rice and, to a lesser extent, Dracula where the social darlings. This was somewhere in the 1980s.  HIV and Aids became a very real and misunderstood fear.    It was thought to… Read more

  • And then suddenly…

    Things have been a little bumpy on this trip. It’s good, but bumpy.    Bumpy 99% of the time because of me, probably, maybe..  but that’s okay.   There’s going to be bumps.   But, overall, it’s going good.    I think we feel more natural with each other this time than last.  I realistically couldn’t ask for much… Read more

  • Comparison is not a sin

    In the House, we were told comparison was a sin. It was sin to compare what I have to what someone else has, to the way she or he looks, or even to how they act or behavior. I think the running theory was that the girls in the House needed to be happy with… Read more

  • Florida – Take 2

    Well, it’s official. I’m flying back on March 18th. This trip will be a little longer than the first – 6 weeks instead of 4. I suppose this is a step in the right direction.    Still, makes me nervous. The weather, while temped tossed, is changing for the better in Indiana.   From where I am,… Read more

  • We haven’t changed the calendar. It doesn’t seem like a priority although we’re some 18 days into 2018. We’ve talked about it.   Commented.   I even looked amount the 60% calendars while taking a gym in Pokémon Go, but no.  Didn’t buy one and 2017 is still pinned to the wall. In a way, I’m okay… Read more

  • A couple of weeks ago, I was at the Indianapolis airport waiting on Jason’s plane to arrive.    I was waiting in the main hub – a circle where all of the incoming planes dump out their passengers.  It’s primarily dominated by overpriced fast food, a couple of souvenir shops, and possibly one actually honest-to-goodness bookstore.  … Read more