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  • Told you so, Katie

    During the final days at the House, Kadie (or is it Katie?) pulled me in for an exit interview.  She wanted to know how I felt the programming, staff, and activities where helpful – what I thought was so ‘great’ about the House.  Really, it was just a self-serving BS interview. One of those “tell me what… Read more

  • Selfish Conversations…?

    Phone conversations are not my favorite.  Texting, writing, e-mails – sure.  I can write thoughts and feelings down, edit for clarity, and feel completely embarrassed that there are words I still cannot spell – but Spell Check can. Speaking is an uncouth cousin by comparison.  Once a word is said, it’s cannot be undone.  It… Read more

  • Yours Truly, A Hot Mess

    Yesterday, which was some 2.5 hours ago, was really kind of difficult… but it started surprising well. I had three (yes three) doctor appointments.  I did it this way intentionally – best to knock how several in a single day then spread it out over a week.  I simply detest having one — appointment per… Read more

  • Stability vs. Sanity

    Some fruit of my not-so-polite college inquiries has yielded fruit. I will be an online .. still adunct of course… of a Comp II course. Positives: –  Money –  Something to do –  Keeps the resume free of half a year work absences – I don’t have to drive in the snow, since it’s an online… Read more

  • I am a storm bringer.

    It’s actually raining right now – 2:48am (of course).  The window is open.  The wetted fresh air is just every so barely moving the curtain- which is a good thing.   If it being rambunctious, I’d have to close the window to save the laptop. I also like the quote – thought it was fitting. I’ve… Read more

  • Three Week Check In

    I would have never picked “Here comes the sun” from the 1969 Beatles album – which is what played during my roughly three week old House commencement.  Trina, my illness absent primary therapist, chose it for me.  Kadie had to guide the ceremony – but there really wasn’t any need to – the elder clients were well-skilled… Read more

  • 1984 is a wonderful novel penned by Orwell somewhere in the late 1940s.  (1949, I think.)  If you’re unfamiliar, the novel, set roughly 30 years before the date it was supposed to happen, is the birth of the Thought Police, Big Brother, and thoughtcrime, and other words that have (oddly and easily) become part of… Read more

  • Trustful Americans

    Yesterday, Indiana started early voting for the quickly approaching November elections.  This is a blessing – and a curse. Blessing – voters, such as those with busy schedules, physical concerns, or who are elderly, can conveniently chose s time, location, and will, hopefully avoid standing in long lines.  Early voting encourages participation. Curse – the… Read more

  • 1:17 a.m.

    All We Ever Knew The Head and the Heart You don’t see why your world has no love to give Well, what goes around comes around I know sometimes you get so caught in a dream But now it’s time to wake up from this It’s time to make up for it It’s time to… Read more

  • Isn’t moderation extreme?

    Moderation: The avoidance of extremes, rather related to behavior, political, financial, spiritual… i.e. – don’t go overboard.  don’t try to be perfect. Just live as the world presents itself – try to find the fabled Truth Cue music: Ya Take The good ya take the bad ya take em both and thare ya have The… Read more