eating disorder

Something has been going on with me over the past couple of days. My body has actually been trying to sleep. Well, maybe sleep is a generous term. It’s been just shutting down anytime I sit still for more than a minute. Unfortunately, this is generally when I’m trying to grade assignments and interact with Read more

The parade of doctor appointments continues. Today, it’s Ashley the case worker. Yesterday, it was to Indy and the urologist. — That one was interesting in its own right. But, the one on Tuesday is currently at ‘the top of mind.’ I’m heading into kind of uncharted territory. Background: I’ve had an EKG and an Read more

Not yesterday but the day before, I took a sleeping pill prescribed by Dr. P. It’s named Matzapine or something like that. I’m supposed to take one before bedtime. It’s 30 mg. The pill is light blue, oval, and just tiny, really. That one pill knocked me on my butt all Saturday. I couldn’t walk Read more

I think there are too many distractions going on for our own good. Look over there — it’s a murderous AI chatbot who wants to kill us all and fell in love with a random person. But, wait! We wasted nearly half a million dollar missile to pop a $12 balloon. No…. Don’t look at Read more

Well… This has been another odd week. Jason ** did ** start work. Actually, he’s been hosted in Indianapolis for the past couple of days for opening documents and information. Although he’s been gone for just a few days (returning this evening), I’ve taken the opportunity to do a couple of things that I wouldn’t Read more

By all accounts, or most of them, I should be satisfied. Mom is healthy and sassy. Baby brother is doing well. Little sister has all but moved home. It * does * actually seem Jason will start his new job on Monday. As an added bonus, he’ll be staying in Indy for three days of Read more

I should be happy. If not happy, at least moving towards satisfied. Jason has * finally * procured a job. It’s with the government and starts on the 23rd. The little sister is moving form Indy back home. Mom is happy. As far as I know, baby brother is happy and healthy. Yes, the weather Read more

I’m… um… I’m feeling fairly exhausted right now and it’s just a minute over 8 am. This is not new. Unfortunately, it has become very typical and expected. What’s different is that I’m not out for a walk in the near-freezing cold. … just stuck my head out the door. Actually, it’s not that bad Read more

Random update: This morning, I’m back on the exercise bike. This isn’t bad but a little different. I started the bike in the mornings to help stretch out my hip while looking at classes. Since the term is over, I’ve been trying to take morning walks instead. I find this immensely more helpful as it Read more

Every day brings its own brand of crazy. Today should have been simple enough. It should have been pleasurable. It should have been stress-relieving. How many people can talk to their sister as a friend? But, no. Rather, in my poor attempt to explain my situation, I just became more aware of how desperate and Read more