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  • 10/1

    Well…. I’ve got the infamous gamma radiation running in my body for the next four to six hours and another hospital bracelet to add to my collection. I think I’m up to at least three or four now. I would have more if I would have kept the psyche ward and St. Francis from earlier Read more

  • 9/24

    Well…. we talked about it yesterday. Jason and me. We were distressed that Sneezles was distressed. We were upset that he was upset. We were suffering because he was suffering. At 3:15 am, some of that was resolved. Sneezles’s body finally gave out. Jason was with him till the end. He brushed, petted, watched, and Read more

  • 9/23

    ….. Sneezles (the cat) hasn’t eaten anything in nearly a week. Or, at least about a week. He barely moves. Barely drinks. I think he mews when he doesn’t see anyone for a while or just when he has strength to do so. Quite clearly, he won’t be around for much longer. And there’s nothing Read more

  • 9/21

    My word of the week is – psyops. A psyops is a psychological manipulation that causes an audience to change their behavior, thinking, culture, and objective. These manipulations are created through media, government, organizations, and foreign powers. My current list includes, but is not limited to: – Body positivity– GMOs– LGBT– Ultra Processed Foods– Climate Read more

  • 9/3

    Jason is in Indy until Thursday evening. The state is having its annual get together where they all get drunk… I guess. They network and go to random seminars and whatnot on the tax payer dime. I think it’s good. It’s good for him to get out, although I wish he would have remembered to Read more

  • 8/30

    Well, off he goes. Jason went to take part two of the Certified Accounting Test. I feel that I have to spell it out because if people thought he was testing for the CIA it would be insulting. I’m at the house today. There’s no real reason to go out save for dinner. But I Read more

  • 8/28

    I have so many thoughts going through my head that I’m crazy. But this is a different type of crazy from the usual crazy. I guess it’s a more controlled crazy. It’s a more realized and manageable one since…. finally… I got my brain tumor and some answers. I don’t remember if I wrote in Read more

  • 8/22

    A couple of days ago, I felt almost broken. Not fully broken mentally or physically. Just severely cracked. I think I was feeling kind of peaceful. Kind of accepting. There wasn’t a reason to struggle or fret. I certainly wasn’t in the ‘everything will be okay’ camp but was just tired. It takes a lot Read more

  • 5/19

    This has been a day of patience. I had to be patient this morning and felt like the morning hours were wasted.  I was to spend the day with my little sister, who didn’t wake until around eleven.   Which, I guess, has become the new COVID normal, but I couldn’t help but feel let down Read more

  • 5/13

    I’m in a unique situation. I’m the oldest of three siblings, who are all in their 40s, who still get along with each other.  I think that’s something my dad never dreamed possible when he is, in part, responsible for our unity. Sure, we think and say bad things about each other every now and Read more