after thoughts

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  • 9/30

    I’d be lying and not lying if I said I wasn’t apprehensive about tomorrow. Tomorrow is the PT scan to determine if I possibly have lung cancer. I’m fortunate that my little sister fought for my insurance to resume. I’m blessed that my mom will be taking me as I’m not 100% sure what type Read more

  • 9/24

    Well…. we talked about it yesterday. Jason and me. We were distressed that Sneezles was distressed. We were upset that he was upset. We were suffering because he was suffering. At 3:15 am, some of that was resolved. Sneezles’s body finally gave out. Jason was with him till the end. He brushed, petted, watched, and Read more

  • “Am I Racist?” Quick Review

    Jason actually wanted to see a movie. Normally, I want to go and he doesn’t. So, we don’t. But he wanted to see this one and I was curious and we did. I’m glad we did. There are bloggers and reviews that will point out how controversial, good, had, or honest it is. I’m not Read more

  • 9/23

    ….. Sneezles (the cat) hasn’t eaten anything in nearly a week. Or, at least about a week. He barely moves. Barely drinks. I think he mews when he doesn’t see anyone for a while or just when he has strength to do so. Quite clearly, he won’t be around for much longer. And there’s nothing Read more

  • 9/21

    My word of the week is – psyops. A psyops is a psychological manipulation that causes an audience to change their behavior, thinking, culture, and objective. These manipulations are created through media, government, organizations, and foreign powers. My current list includes, but is not limited to: – Body positivity– GMOs– LGBT– Ultra Processed Foods– Climate Read more

  • 9/9

    Today has been up and down. I started on a fairly sour note. I was up at my usual AM time, had breakfast, went back to sleep. Although I’m aware sleeping is good, I still feel fairly horrible and guilty for doing so — although I know there’s no valid reason to be awake 20 Read more

  • 9/7

    I’m kind of surprised that I’m doing as well as I am. The fluctuation in temperature from warm to cold has left me extremely stiff. My back is starting to bleed from the wound again. My joints ache. Of course, there’s the ongoing struggle to sleep and the change of thyroid medicine has left me Read more

  • 9/3

    Jason is in Indy until Thursday evening. The state is having its annual get together where they all get drunk… I guess. They network and go to random seminars and whatnot on the tax payer dime. I think it’s good. It’s good for him to get out, although I wish he would have remembered to Read more

  • 8/30

    Well, off he goes. Jason went to take part two of the Certified Accounting Test. I feel that I have to spell it out because if people thought he was testing for the CIA it would be insulting. I’m at the house today. There’s no real reason to go out save for dinner. But I Read more

  • 8/28

    I have so many thoughts going through my head that I’m crazy. But this is a different type of crazy from the usual crazy. I guess it’s a more controlled crazy. It’s a more realized and manageable one since…. finally… I got my brain tumor and some answers. I don’t remember if I wrote in Read more