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  • 7/3

    Yesterday…. yesterday was a bit rough. I took it on myself to fight my fear and mow the yard. Yes, I know how silly that sounds… mowing the yard. But it’s more than just moving. It’s the strength to start the mower, not freaking out when it stalls, and just doing it. Just the action… Read more

  • 6/28

    Lately, I’ve been feeling that I need to do more with less. I’m starting to become wasteful and even wanton – although I’m not sure how that word applies. It’s like I’m fattening up and not holding myself accountable or to as strict self-regulation as I have previously. This bloated feeling affects just about everything… Read more

  • Dear Students (May term)

    Dear Students, Congratulations on completing ENG 202. Some of you have passed. Some of you did not. But, you did advance in your college career to ENG 202. Although, I’m not sure how as many of you seem bewildered by coping APA references from generators, using Word, or even capitalizing the word “I” and the… Read more

  • 6/19

    This is seriously shameful, but I’m trying not to freak. I’m upset that the grass is getting high and it’s been an obsession all day. I’ve checked, double checked, triple checked the forecast. It’s promised rain. I’ve prayed for rain. For a storm. For a sprinkle. But, nothing. I didn’t have a whole lot of… Read more

  • 6/14

    My current big brain thought is energy. According to the Conservation of Energy, energy can never be created or destroyed. Energy is all around us. It’s in us. It’s food. It’s muscle responses. If you’re religious, it’s the Divine Spark. Energy can be stored, transformed, and converted. But there’s just so much to go around.… Read more

  • 6/8

    Jason, bless him, mowed the yards on Friday. Despite it being muggy and the discomfort it caused, he mowed. Thank goodness. It had been over a week and I don’t think I had the brain compacity to handle it. I’m getting better. I think I am. But I would have had a miserable weekend. Even… Read more

  • 5/24

    Today, I just feel like I want to scream. I want to cry. I want to sleep although I know rest will not come. And the thing is that I have no idea why. For once, I slept (fairly) well and late. Well, late for me. It was actually around late in the 9 o’clock… Read more

  • 5/21

    Well, John from CenterS gave me an assignment. Since he actually read some of my blog posts and took notes (!!), I thought I’d work on this. My assignment was to come up with ten songs that influenced or are important to me. In thinking, I’ve come up with a lot of honorable mentions but… Read more

  • 5/18

    Imagine that you’re an ant. You’re working with your colony in the moist dirt. It isn’t raining and newly hatched so there might be a peace to the community. There might be a feeling of harmony as everyone begins to work together for the greater goal of preparation for the queen, the extra mouths to… Read more

  • 5/3

    When I was a Wiccan, I associated myself with May First. A.K.A. May Day’. May Day is the celebration of fertility and growth. It’s the symbolic shedding of the cold and listless winter returning to life. It’s often associated with the birth of lambs, children, and dancing around the May Pole. You know – that’s… Read more