after thoughts

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mental-health

  • I… I haven’t been well lately. A lot of this I think I’m placing on myself. I’m anxious about work. About my health. About relationships. About the holidays. Thanksgiving is less than a week away and I’m stressing. I’m quite happy with my current consumption of food. The pressure of mashed potatoes, gravy, dressing… I… Read more

  • 11/21 – Witchy thoughts

    You may not know this about me, but at one time I was a witch. Well, I wouldn’t label myself that. More like a Wiccian. Or, specifically, a nature observer… ? Analysist…. ? I looked for patterns and symbols. In doing so, I strived to be objective, rational, and reject the pre-assigned meanings. Humanity is… Read more

  • 11/13

    Today…. today is an odd day. Actually, it’s been an odd week. Month. Right now, Cammeron from Comfort Heating, Plumbing, and Air is here for a PM check. Although the plumbing is just three years old, we had a lot of problems at the start. The special of $40 seems more than fair. I’m also… Read more

  • 11/6 –

    Today has been difficult. I guess it’s to be expected. I’ve had a couple of precious months where I almost felt stable. Good, bad, or ugly, I didn’t break down. Last night I started to feel mentally wobbly and almost lost it over trash of all things. This morning, I started out okay, but I… Read more

  • 10/29

    I’m apprehensive about the SNAP thing. It doesn’t affect me. I’m not on SNAP, but given my history, I know food access shouldn’t be denied. It can be limited, difficult, have self-imposed boundaries, or medical restrictions. But denied? No more food stamps? It’s not just that. Americans have little to no, generally speaking, financial comprehension.… Read more

  • 10/18

    I feel like I messed up. Jason found this article from someone who claimed that 70% or higher dark chocolate (non-alkaline aka. – not Dutch chocolate) has a wealth of benefits. It has flavonoids, magnesium, anti-oxidants… ect. After a bit of quick research, we bought a bar of Tony’s from the local Wal-Mart. That evening,… Read more

  • 9/24 Truth to Power

    I hate catch phrases that relate to excuses. “This is the way it has to be” for example. No, that’s not the way it has to be, That’s a lazy man’s excuse. “It is what it is” is another bs line. Nothing is what it is. It’s what we perceive it to be, not what… Read more

  • 9/3

    I’m between classes right now. Despite not having a paycheck coming in, I’m feeling rather relieved. The last couple of weeks of the semester were a bit of a wreck for me. I was fairly paranoid since it was such a large class – about thirty students. That’s about eight to ten more students than… Read more

  • 8/28

    Do you remember Gauntlet? It was a four-person game back in the mid 80s and 90s. Plug a quarter in and you could play as a quick but weak elf, mid-skilled Valkyrie, slow warrior or even slower wizard. I’d hope and pray for reflective shot and, I think, at one point there was a way… Read more

  • Big brain thought: Marriage.

    At one point and maybe even traditionally, marriage was seen as a social and legally binding contract. Two people, man and woman, unite via kills with the understood obligation of creating a conjoined unit for the purpose of companionship and to, ultimately, raise children. Marriage grants political, social, and economic rights and… hopefully,,, stability. It… Read more