after thoughts

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mental-health

  • 8/13

    I’m a bit jaded today. Okay, a lot jaded. The meanness, stubbornness, and exceedingly critical review of – everything — including the stupid writing prompt from WordPress – is just a front for a deep well of emptiness. For desperation. I’m not exhausted – although I would prefer it. I crave the flatlined mind that’ll… Read more

  • Exploring Thanos’ Choice (Brand New Day)

    In Bruce Banner’s lecture hall, a student asked: “Why didn’t Thanos just make unlimited food?” — Or something like that. My memory isn’t perfect. But it did take me off guard. Why did Thanos see that his only option was to poof half of universal life? It tickled the really teeny tiny itty bitty part… Read more

  • Not so ghost ghosts on my class roster.

    Just a bit of a vent – To rehash, I’m an adjunct.I’ve been so for longer than most of my students have been breathing. The enshittification, grade inflation, and reduction of college standards nearly mirror the increasing failing of my infection-producing body. It’s odd how they – my body and college education – are breaking.… Read more

  • 7/25

    I don’t think my deodorant works well. About a week ago or so, I finished with a stick of Hey Human – the fancy one that comes in a cardboard tube. Surprisingly, that one wasn’t bad or expensive. I think it goes for some $8 at Target but was $3 at Ollie’s. It didn’t have… Read more

  • 7/19

    The AI couldn’t comprehend the picture. Very disappointed. Read more

  • Drama – America’s fall – Two questions

    Will America fall? I think that this is two questions, honestly. It’s too ambiguous. (Version One)Will America fall?— Will it disappear? Become akin to Rome and just disappear? Is Trump Ozymandias, and will one of his statues be found in the middle of a desert a hundred years in the ruins of what was D.C?… Read more

  • 7/2

    Just kind of checking in. I still have the stuff oozing out of me. Still infected. Still achy. Yesterday was a bit tough. I dropped the phone while checking out mom’s baby watermelon. The screen tried to make friends with the gravel driveway. It didn’t work. The screen shattered. Friendship was not achieved. So –… Read more

  • 6/26

    We truly live in a clown world, don’t we? Well, that’s an insult to clowns. At least they bring some sort of joy (or fear) to people. Some sort of emotion. I think a lot of people are beaten into a dull acceptance – including me. I read an article about Novak – the man… Read more

  • ENG202 – May 2026 – Dear Class

    Everyone, You have astounded and amazed me in these few months. Astounded me with your sheer arrogance and ignorance. Amazed by your opportunistic privilege. I suppose, in a way, I set myself up for this a bit. I saw the AI writing in the smaller assignments early in the term. The discussion posts. The reflections.… Read more

  • Riding the Fear Wave – Got your Surfboard?

    A while ago, I was introduced to the concept of fear waves. The concept is easily understood but is often dismissed because it occurs so frequently and can take multiple years to play out simultaneously. First – a definition. A fear wave is an occurrence that causes a person, society, or a community anxiety, depression,… Read more