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  • 4/18

    I’ve been feeling pretty odd lately on several different fronts. It’s about time for me to return to Florida, as per Jason and my agreement from February.  I’m supposed to go down there for a couple of months and then both of us head back to Indiana in late July for Gencon and his vacation. Read more

  • 3/29

    Saving throw failed. I didn’t see Us today, but I kind of knew I wasn’t going to when I finished the blog yesterday.  But, you know, that’s okay. I’m kind of used to getting my hopes up and then letting myself down.   It’s a tedious process but makes it sweeter when I actually do follow Read more

  • 3/28

    I talked myself out of seeing a movie. I heard that US was a psychological horror flick with tones of anti-socialism and groupthink.  It’s a bit bloody, kind of funny, and would take many viewings to catch the entire meaning. I was going to watch it yesterday but sabotaged myself by staying too long at Read more

  • 1/24

    Something strange happened this morning. I fell. It wasn’t just a little fall either.  It had two parts. First, there was the pre-lack of coordination.  This is when I performed the morning ritual of bribing… not giving… bribing the cat with some 6am snacks as a way let Jason get another hour of sleep before Read more

  • 1/21

    Today feels like it’s going to be lazy. At one point, I thought that was a curse…  a day without running around in some form of panic and anxiety.  But, I’ve become pretty cool with it as long as it doesn’t happen too often. Actually, I’m feeling fairly tired again. I might take a nap. Read more

  • 1/6

    I made yesterday more difficult than it needed to be. We started roaming — which is good.   We just drive around until we hit a place or something comes to mind.   It’s not planned, but kind of like going on a explore mission in some game.    We get bonus points by covering a lot Read more

  • 12/31

    Happy New Year’s Eve. Congratulations –  We’re under 24 hours away from putting up the 2019 calendar – somehow.   It’s been a pretty crazy year. Yeh, but it’s over. Let the new craziness begin! Yesterday was kind of a fruit loop. In the morning, the boy’s mother and step-dad stopped to visit. Apparently, the Sunday Read more

  • 12/14

    There’s nothing wrong with having an off day, is there? Silly question, I know.  I know it’s okay, but I always wonder if it’s okay. Well, if it’s okay for – me – to have an off day. Lee’s visit has left fairly melancholy. While this is a somewhat familiar mindstate at home, this is Read more

  • 12/6

    Well, today has been pretty much a bust. It hasn’t rained or snowed, although I’m sure it’s freezing out there. I’m half packed and spent most of the day napping. While lounging around the house is some people’s picture of a perfect day, I find it fairly madding.  I feel like I have to be Read more

  • 12/5

    Wednesday –  Cold – like the high of the mid to low 30s.  That’s about zero degrees in Celsius.  Good times. I think I drove the truck for the last time today.  Well, the last time for a couple of months.   It’s supposed to snow and rain tomorrow.   I don’t really have a viable reason Read more