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  • Floridians and Christmas

    I think it was the third or fourth year Obama was president, Jason and I went for a walk a few days before Christmas to see the lights. We saw token lights from the bigger houses, rarely, but the two and three-bedroom houses in the neighborhood where dark – desperately dark.  On occasion, lights peeped… Read more

  • 12/6

    Sometimes I wonder if my Prozac dosage didn’t change since I’ve been here. Certainly, there’s quite a bit of difference between here and Indiana.  Both good and bad.   But, I guess in Florida I’m adulting more than in Indiana.     It’s easier to be wise and beneficial when I don’t feel that I have as… Read more

  • 11/30 pt 2

    I got to write a blog this morning and here I am again. To avoid Jason becoming a sun crisp, we’re going to go out later this evening.    —   Which is a bit hilarious for the northerner in me considering that it’s late November — I could clean up some stuff around the… Read more

  • 11/30

    Survived Thanksgiving. The day was pretty rough mentally, but I think I survived it fairly well. I kept chanting ‘no whammies’ and I guess it worked for once. First, of course, there was the whole food thing. I don’t think anyone really appreciates the dread us anorexics go through outside of another anorexic.  Especially one… Read more

  • Angels V. Ferrari

    Disclaimer: I haven’t watched Ford V Ferrari or Charlies Angles (2019) at this juncture. However, I’m going to give this analysis thing a stab.   Since I really know what’s on the surface, I’ll be able to just sally forth without, hopefully, getting too much off track.  Besides, second and third-hand knowledge seems to be perfect… Read more

  • News and other things

    Just some random thoughts. A lot of people are pushing for electric cars or, at least hybrid cars. Okay.   That’s fine.  Cool, but the main gist is to buy a new car and get into debt. I’m not sure how that helps the average person. The last I checked, cars are expensive.   And, while the… Read more

  • Next Sunday, November 10th, I will be returning to Florida yet again for three months.   Well, four months.   I won’t be back on home soil until the last day of March.  Instead, I’ll have sand underneath my feet that don’t grow vegetables. But, at the same time, I’m certainly dodging the snow and temperatures dropping… Read more

  • October 31

    The unexpected term from Hades ended yesterday. Thank goodness. I felt the students were trying to drain my very soul. There were just so many students at need.  By need, I mean “I’m special.”  “I can’t do this.” “I suck.” “Why can’t I do this my way.” Apparently, there was at least two pregnant, one… Read more

  • quick update

    Life has been a bit more crazy than usual for the past couple of months. There’s been a time where I’ve just wanted to curl up and not move for days, but I press on. Kid sister has moved to Avon.    That’s about an hour plus away. Her new and first, as far as… Read more

  • 9/10

    …   I just want to say wow. My last post got hits from Australia, India, and the U.S. That is just awesome. You like me.   You really really like me. —  Cliche, yeah, but it helps bring some sort of validation to my life.   Thanks. Okay, moving on… I’ve had this mantra running through my… Read more