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  • 8/11

    There’s a lot of stuff I’ve wanted to write about. A lot of things have happened, but I just haven’t had a chance to breathe for the past couple of weeks. First, it was Gencon with the little sis for four or five days.   Then it was the little brother for four days.  Jason was… Read more

  • Things I like

    It’s been about five hours since my last post. Jason is still playing NieR.    At one point, he’ll have to shut it off to do some grocery shopping, maybe, but until that time I’m keeping myself busy. If he’s happy, I’m happy. We don’t get quite evenings like this very often. There’s a lot… Read more

  • Lipstick on a Pig

    I’m sure that AOC has a reason for preferring that particular red shade of lipstick.  Occasionally, I think there’s some type of berry shade, but 99% of the time it’s are bright and potent red. It’s one of her more notable features.   It gains attention to her, particularly her mouth.  By association, I think it… Read more

  • 6/28

    A new semester started on Wednesday. I got a 305 course, which I’m thrilled about.    I think I can tend to push them more intellectually than the students who are still learning the ropes in the lower level classes. The thing is that I only have three students. Three. Wow.   I’m not going to… Read more

  • 6/13

    I made yesterday harder for me than I needed to. First, I’ve been really good about skipping my Prozac for the past couple of days.   The last time I did that was a couple of years ago when I had a not-so-friendly panic attack.   I felt shamed because of the distress that I underwent and… Read more

  • 5/10

    I haven’t stepped outside at all today. I didn’t get the mail.   I didn’t pet Fluffy.  I just literally didn’t do anything but a little bit of homework here and there. Tomorrow, tomorrow, I expect that I’ll be a bit busy.  But today – it’s nothing. And the thing about today is that I haven’t… Read more

  • 5/9

    And today… today, I’m exhausted for no apparent reason. Baby bro woke me up early.    Together, we went to a 7am primary care appointment.    7am isn’t that big of a deal.   I’m used to getting up a lot earlier than that. You’d think the 7am appointment wouldn’t have to wait, but no.   Waited… Read more

  • 5/7

    I’ve been in an odd sort of mood lately. Well, I’m always in an odd sort of mood.   But, that’s beside the point. I’ve been noticing things lately.  Not good things.  Things that are a bit worrying. During my anorexic years, I became increasingly aware of the shapes of other people. I wasn’t cruel to… Read more

  • 5/3

    Tomorrow is the Disney holiday – May fourth  –  as in, “May the fourth be with you.”   Cheezy as heck, but Disney made it huge when they started releasing the new Star Wars movies. I don’t think they really promote that anymore, but a scar has been left on that day.    Thanks, Disney! New… Read more

  • 4/29 – free writing

    Tomorrow, I need to take my fakey Boniva.  It’s not the named branded stuff, but I guess it serves the same purpose.    Okay, it’s not tomorrow.   Rather May 1st. Tomorrow I see Endgame with little bro and sister after going to the gym with little bro. Experiment —- Actually going to try to free… Read more