after thoughts

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relationships

  • 7/26

    Have you ever had one of those days… weeks… where you’re trying to project a feeling to the significant other.     That person doesn’t acknowledge it, just doesn’t get it, or chooses to ignore it. This is more than “Hey idiot, do the dishes.” Rather, it’s like a mutual and soulful agreement that really… Read more

  • 7/22

    I….  we….  head to Indiana on Friday. Then, two weeks after that, he heads back alone. Him, to a house with only a cat, work, and school. I’m back to my doctors and family. It doesn’t seem quite fair.     This is probably the most ‘normal’ we’ve been in like… forever.  He goes to… Read more

  • 7/12

    Scrub-a-dub-dub. Fresh off my triumph of doing yard work yesterday without it raining — take that 70% chance —  I decided to double down and do some yard work today as well.     Out I went! Since I mowed the yard, weeded, and did some other stuff yesterday, I did what Frank suggested.    Off… Read more

  • 7/9

    I got the back yard mowed before it rained.   Ha ha! Course, it’s the front yard that really needed, but I did the back yard.  The front yard will be tomorrow, providing there are 12 hours or so without rain so the yard will dry up a bit. I know the weather is crazy all… Read more

  • 7/7

    Odd day. Odd weekend. Because of the Fourth, Jason had four days off from work.   We pretty much spent them in each other’s company.  Four days of 24 hours of me all the time.    Wow.   I feel sorry for him when I think about it.   I wouldn’t want to be alone… Read more

  • 6/13

    I made yesterday harder for me than I needed to. First, I’ve been really good about skipping my Prozac for the past couple of days.   The last time I did that was a couple of years ago when I had a not-so-friendly panic attack.   I felt shamed because of the distress that I underwent and… Read more

  • 6/11

    The Florida trip is going well so far. Actually, it’s kind of weird.     Weird in that it’s almost normal. Jason isn’t going to school and comes home in the evening.    He sits and plays games or we go walking somewhere.   I monitor my class and go to the gym, weather permitting.… Read more

  • Hero Journey (Jason)

    I don’t believe in a lot, but I believe that we’re protagonists in our own story… sometimes.  I guess it depends on what day it is.   But, over that, I believe in patterns.    Patterns of behavior.   Patterns of history.  Patterns of society. So, while we’re protagonists, there’s a pattern that we follow.    Sometimes,… Read more

  • Queen identification (Snow White)

    I’ve indulged in the time-wasting click bait of what type of animal, princess, or Happy Days character am I.   Okay, so maybe not the Happy Days one, but you get the idea. These things don’t really mean anything and it’s painfully obvious that the questions are uninspired.  The outcome could be whatever you want. Well,… Read more

  • 5/13

    Okay. This week… Today, I took the truck to Seymour for an airbag repair recall.   The truck is some 8 years old and there’s still recalls on it?   Damn. Tomorrow, Tuesday – Day with the little brother.   That probably means the gym and seeing Detective Pickachu. Wednesday is all about the little sister. Hoping for… Read more