I was supposed to have an online appointment with Heather, the Charis Center Neutralist, this morning.

I just couldn’t do it. I couldn’t do the BS dance with her as I’m not following the f*ucking pink meal plan. I have no intention of following said meal plan and just didn’t feel like trying to pretend like I am today.

Rather, I spent a good chunk of my day feeling vindicated. I’m glad I skipped the appointment. I don’t need to feel any worse than what I already do… I spent my day doing, according to her, life threatening activities like doing the dishes and working outside.

Well, at least I felt that way until this after I started to run out of things to do and reality started to set in a bit.

Heather is trying to help me…. I’m obviously struggling… and I’m worrying the people who I care about and who actually care about me.

Skipping appointments probably isn’t the best outcome.

But I still call BS on what she says. Although I did take her advice and think about food. I’ve thought about it a lot today. That’s probably part of why I’m so depressed right now.

Being just a mouthpiece for her education and ‘beliefs,’ I think there’s a lot of misinformation, pride, and money involved.

For example, carbs are pushed * a lot. * A low fat diet tends to be higher in carbs. There has to be some substance in food.

But… why?
There are essential fats. There are essential proteins. To my knowledge, there are no such things as essential carbs.

But, yet carbs are pushed to be the end-all be all godly part of a healthy diet… as evident by the BS food pyramid… and fats are considered the evil bad guy.

Fats are essential. Protein is essential. Carbs are not.

The American Heart Society promotes a low fat diet but Americans are in an obesity epidemic. Diabetes and heart disease run rampant.

I don’t think it’s because people aren’t following the food pyramid. If Covid proved anything, Americans listen to the “experts” although it kills them.

There isn’t money in fats and protein. Not like the addictive sugar added through carbs. We probably don’t get the dopamine hit from the other places like we do sugar. Sugar are carbs… regardless of whatever hundreds of names that they call it.

Sugar and salt are manufactured by a lot of big-name companies. There’s a lot of money to be made and, when a message is repeated enough times, people blindly believe.

If it wasn’t true, it wouldn’t be repeated over and over again across multiple generations…. right?

That’s a fallacy. A harsh one. One that is killing people.

But, here we are.

I’m just not buying it. But, in doing so, I’m failing. I’m causing people to worry.

I just can’t win.