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eating disorder

  • 4/26

    I was going to write something yesterday, but I was so rudely interrupted by a two and a half hour phone call………………….   Bleh. In a way, I feel like I’m in a pretty good place in my life right now. It’s certainly not perfect by any means, but I’m working (sorta), being a good sister,… Read more

  • 4/18

    I’ve been feeling pretty odd lately on several different fronts. It’s about time for me to return to Florida, as per Jason and my agreement from February.  I’m supposed to go down there for a couple of months and then both of us head back to Indiana in late July for Gencon and his vacation.… Read more

  • 4/12

    Another odd day. Yesterday, I had the full intention of going to the gym, doing homework, and eating a pint of Arctic Zero I bought for myself.   Rather, little sister bought for me at the same time she bought herself B&J’s Cinnamon Bun, which disappeared after two days. I opened my eyes this morning, about… Read more

  • 3/14

    I have a love/hate relationship with this time of year. I can see the faded green coming back in winter scorched tree bark….. ………. Grrrr… I love spring, okay. Spring is coming, but it hasn’t sprung just yet. It’s trying.   Starts of Easter Lillies are pushing up from the grown.   There’s green.   I see buds… Read more

  • On an island.

    There once was a man who lived on a small island.  Coming from a fairly well-off family, he desired political power and, eventually got it through various and, sometimes, not-so-nice means. But, during this time, he built roads, opened a record number of schools, and was honored with numerous awards and certificates, including the Chinese… Read more

  • 2/12

    The weather is 30, not 80. It’s been raining on and off for the past couple of days instead of a blue sky. The rivers swell and I’m wearing pants, not shorts.  (Blue jeans, even if they’re out of style.) I’m in a house of four others instead of just one. I don’t have to… Read more

  • 1/24

    Something strange happened this morning. I fell. It wasn’t just a little fall either.  It had two parts. First, there was the pre-lack of coordination.  This is when I performed the morning ritual of bribing… not giving… bribing the cat with some 6am snacks as a way let Jason get another hour of sleep before… Read more

  • 1/21

    Today feels like it’s going to be lazy. At one point, I thought that was a curse…  a day without running around in some form of panic and anxiety.  But, I’ve become pretty cool with it as long as it doesn’t happen too often. Actually, I’m feeling fairly tired again. I might take a nap.… Read more

  • 1/8

    Change of plans. I’m not going to the gym today.   Rather, I’m going to spend the day doing house and yard work.  My right leg is still feeling pretty spongy.   I’ve got to walk about 45 minutes (one way) to get to the gym.   I’m also feeling kind of sunburnt.  I didn’t use sunblock on… Read more

  • 1/7

    I’m trying something different. I’m sitting g outside, in the dark.  There’s a firetruck wailing in the background.  Fish jumping in the bay.  Waiting for Jason to get out of class. Normally, I’d be walking around while waiting for him to get out of class.  But, I’ve pushed myself a bit today.  According to pokemon… Read more